Rev. Haggard:

"There is part of my life that is so repulsive and dark that I've been warring against it all of my adult life."

Unfortunately he is not referring to the part of his life that extorts money to brainwash people into following a obscenely twisted form of Christianity, via sermons that have been compared to the Nuremberg Rallies?

Haggard confesses to 'lifelong' sexual problem - CNN.com